things will change. I can see it now. these walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down...

I couldn't figure out why the crazy situations I was put in were impossible to get out of. Falling for the wrong guy, falling for the right guy who just can't let himself fall for you, the list goes on and on. It began to seem like all the situations in my life ran in circles; as soon as it was solved, it was an issue again.
There were walls built up around them. I tried and tried to break down the walls. I tried to do all the right things. What I learned is that sometimes when you're trying to break down walls, you have to make sure you're going for the right bricks... I became habitual in nature. If I ran in to a problem, I would try to solve it in one particular way. Sometimes, you have to realize that you need to address the situation you want to be in, not the one you already are. If you dance in circles around the same issue, you are never going to move on. It's like that brick in the wall you just can't seem to break through. Sometimes it's the bricks all around it causing the problems.
More importantly, sometimes it's yourself. I wonder if those times when I thought I need to tear down their wall, I was really building one of my own. I saw them as being guarded, and in turn I began to guard myself. For every brick I tore down of theirs, I added one to my wall. It seemed as if I wanted things to fail. I was attacking the wrong bricks...

Toi et moi- Ça ne changera pas

I wish I could explain why everything suddenly came down to this. "Toi et moi- Ca ne changera pas;" you and me- it doesn't change. I can't let it go sometimes. After years apart, it continues to come back to the same things. I don't understand it.
One last chance. One last chance to make it right. One last attempt at everything we've ever wanted. I can't blow it this time. We can't blow it this time.