I don't know what it is, but I've suddenly lost any sort of drive towards sharing my life and thoughts with other people.
However, for the sake of my writings being a record of my thoughts and feelings throughout my life, I thought I'd try and say something to sum up this last month.
I'm not sure why, but I suddenly started feeling like I wasn't really sure about my religion. I know I believe in God and that Jesus Christ saved us from our sins, but something wasn't totally there for me.
I had a child at church camp ask me about God and why I believed in Him. When I said that I had always believed in His love for me, she continued to ask me why, and I realized that I didn't really know. There is nothing more terrifying that realizing that what you thought you believed was unsure, and I've really been battling with those feelings lately.
My thoughts always seem to focus around something negative before I tell myself why it's wrong to think that way. But I wonder if I tell myself to change my ways just to because I feel obligated to as a christian, rather than because I truly feel it's the right thing to do.
This has been circling my mind for the past month, and I'm not sure I can offer any deep insights on it. I'm just worried about what sorts of battles with my faith may come from this...
