I said 2011 was going to be the year I become a bitch, and as of right now, I'm really holding up to that.
I have continued to go out of my way being nice to people and doing what it takes to please them, and I' sick of it. I'm sick of being walked all over. I'm sick of people not asking me how I feel. I'm sick of people having to apologize for being rude, even when I'm not the one who brings it up, because they didn't take in to consideration that I am here and I have an opinion. I am sick and tired of all of this.
So, I decide to let out some of my concerns in as tactful of a way as possible to these people. I wrote a letter to a few of them, expressing my concerns and drawing up solutions to these problems. I did nothing but talk about how I really enjoy these people, but I was tired of my opinions and beliefs never being put into play. What do I get back? People mad at me, people turning things back on me, saying I need to get a backbone and that's why they do all these things, and in the end, no solution to a single problem. In the end they still wonder why I don't stick up for myself. If this is how I'm going to be treated when I express my opinions, it gives me a solid reason to never express them.
So screw being tactful. Screw being pleasing. This is the year of the bitch, and if you want to get defensive, go ahead, but I refuse to let anyone else walk all over me again...
