Is it possible to forgive AND forget?
I have always said that no matter what happens, I will never take some people back in to my life. I told myself I was stronger than the pain I would inevitably go through having them by my side. It was forgetting that made me afraid to forgive.
Is it really possible to forget when someone has hurt you? Even if it was possible, would it be worth it? In the end, who are we really afraid to forgive, them, or ourselves for taking them back?
I have passed this same person for years almost daily, unwilling to even make eye contact after what he had done to me. No matter how hard he tries, I can't forget, and because of it there is no way I could truly forgive him.
I used to believe that if you truly could not find it in yourself to forgive someone, it was a sign that they were not meant to be in your life. After all, I don't have the same friends I did when I was 5. Sure, separation takes a toll on friendships, but I have let many people go when I was unable to forgive them. I have moved on from that and survived my inability to forgive. So, is there a reason that there are people now that I couldn't bring myself to letting back into my life?
Is it a sign when I can't forgive and forget, or an excuse? How many people have I let leave my life because I was too afraid to put my guard down and trust them again? Maybe I don't need to forgive them, I need to forgive myself for trying so hard to keep people out.
I wonder about the people I have let go. Where they supposed to be in my life today? Can I forgive myself if they were?
