A friend of mine got me thinking today about this quote and said something that really struck me.
Lately, I've been focusing on being who I am to gain the confidence I've always wanted. However, how many of us actually know who we are? We always say to stay true to ourselves, but do we even know what we are staying true to? Is this why when we look back on ourselves we have changed greatly? Are we not entirely sure of ourselves to the point where we can't recognize the changes we've made within ourselves?
There are many details of myself that I wouldn't be able to truly define. I have ideas of what type of person I would ideally be. Everyone does. But am I really that person?
I like to think I am a strong Christian, but am I really that person, or just in the moments I focus on to come to that conclusion? How many moments out of my day am I truly a representation of Jesus Christ?
I like to think I am a respectful girl, but am I really that person? Or do I just focus on those little moments where I am and ignore every thing that differs from what I want to see?
How much of my life am I not only living, but seeing? Am I really observing all that I am, or am I just noticing the things about me I want to see?
I've changed a lot over the last few years. But the thing is, I'm slowly wanting to change back. I've seen the changes I'm making as "getting older," but in all reality, I'm just losing who I want to be and who I truly was. I didn't know who I was, and I didn't know when I lost myself. Now I can really discover who I am and blossom from that, not away from that.
