Love. I know, the topic is getting old for me, too. But just when I don't ever want to hear that word again, life throws it at me.
True, love is a beautiful thing, but man is it confusing. And lately it seems like every class at school is relating the lesson back to that topic. In fact, one of the more prominent lessons has been in advanced issues, called "when God writes your love story." Our lesson is based off a book I read earlier in the year for adv. issues by Eric and Leslie Ludy. Anyone struggling with love, read this book.
And it seems like it was no coincidence that this book was brought back up. I had nearly forgotten all about reading it. I remembered key aspects of it: why you should wait, why you should have God in your love life, etc. etc. etc., but nothing ever seemed to click in terms of applying it to my own life. It was more like those principles of christian relationships were burned in to my mind rather than something I truly believed in.
I sometimes questioned waiting until marriage. I've been in situations where a guy has really pressured me in to giving that up. I've been in a relationship where that was the deal breaker. But because it was burned in to my mind, I let that relationship go. I just never really knew why it was burned in to my mind to the point where I can't ignore it.
Then, there was putting God in your love life. This is more than just going to church together or talking about faith or dating a christian. Putting God in your love life means handing Him the pen to write you a beautiful love story, with no input from you. I know, "but God doesn't know my taste." "But God doesn't understand what I'm looking for." God knows, because He made you. He knows every little quirk about you, every freckle on your face, the exact sound of your laugh, and He knows the person perfect for you. You just have to trust Him long enough to help you figure it out.
I know, lately my blogs have sounded more like sermons that a testimonial to my life, but these are the things I'm finding more and more true as time goes on. When I've taken control of my love life, entirely on my own, I've picked nothing but losers. I've picked guys who are getting arrested or out partying every night or cheaters. I've never picked someone who was a real christian because I didn't look for someone with the help of God. I have to trust that God will lead the right person in to my life and know that that right person will never pressure me in to doing things I don't want to do.
I've already sacrificed a lot of things in the search for love, and I'm not willing to give up any more. I'm handing the pen over to God...
